Clusterfuck: Discernment in this Digital Age

I think we can all agree on this right?

The world has gone utterly mad. And worse, it has gone mad in a way that is unprecedented in most of human history. Too much change, too fast, too ubiquitous, too much erasure of past norms and expectations, too little by way of solid, sensible alternatives.

My singular take is that this era has thrown more at all of us than most of us can handle. I was just beginning to get a handle on the internet and all it offered when social media and its myriad applications and then AI comes along. Now I have a whole new cast of applications to explore and yet another new language to learn. All the while wondering if my intimate questions are being stored in some highly secretive database to be hauled out to my competitor’s advantage should I consider running for local council at any time up the road.

As a writer, I am well familiar with “prompts” designed to oil the internal writing machine and get words flowing. Now there are “AI influencers” willing to teach us how to write the most effective prompts to get the best answers for whatever thorny philosophical issue we are currently ruminating about and specifically targeted to whatever AI application we are using. Woof.

In the face of these myriad new options, we secretly struggle with the attendant anxiety that the very Bot we are pouring our hearts and intimate thoughts out to may one day circle back and enslave us in a way we have not yet even imagined. All we know (or fear) is: “Machines may one day take over the world!” (You mean they haven’t already?)

We used to have “trusted” sources to rely on to navigate our lives. Or at least calm us down. It almost seems naively comical now. The media. The church. Government (okay, I know that is a candidate for serious debate about trust). And God help us, our elders. People who have lived for a few decades and had enough life experience to actually guide the next generation with wisdom and clarity. Snort. The words “antiquated” and “Dodo bird” come to mind. They have wisdom and experience all right. The problem is their advice just isn’t particularly relevant in the face of the modern technological era.

I come from the generation that transitioned from no TV to “three channels to choose from” TV to color TV. Pop quiz. How many channels are there worldwide now? Don’t worry. I don’t remotely claim to know how many there are either. That appears to be a generic problem today. Too many choices. Too few “trusted sources.” Little to no integrity in our leaders or in our institutions.

So here is the task that lies before us individually. Discernment. The joy of youth is the promiscuous exploration of the many and various options life has to offer. People date extensively. They travel worldwide. They may move fluidly through several jobs among different career paths. Humans are fundamentally creatures of habit and structure. We are limited after all.

The myriad of choices available now are more overwhelming than freeing. Eventually one must choose a path and stick to it. You can choose the path of eclecticism, of course, flitting from pursuit to pursuit. But that usually leads to fragmentation in your spirit and in your life.

I remember when rising to the top of a career needed the single minded determination of a sperm heading for the egg. Success meant having to out swim and outlast all of its competitors to claim the prize of fertilization. Victory was well-defined. A baby was the trophy for all that effort. In the work world, it was the chase of promotion after promotion, pay raise after pay raise, elevation from the cubicle to a corner office. Retirement one day with the promise of a gold watch and a pension that would sustain you until the grave.

Work models in the modern era? Utterly upended. Today there are a hundred different paths to a hundred different prizes all with the promise of varying degrees of legitimacy and success. Remote work? Once a beleaguered office worker’s pipe dream is now constrained only by the strength and stability of your internet connection. Fame? Accessible through many platforms if you have the requisite discipline and messaging to sustain a consistent and engaging online presence. And pensions? Those are mostly cheap accommodations in major cities around the world.

In therapy, they say acknowledging there is a problem is the first step on the path to resolving it. Hear, hear. Acknowledging that the tsunami of technological change has come on way too hard and too fast for most of us to comfortably absorb and process it all is a strong start. And instead of social cohesion, fragmentation in the general population is entirely understandable. When everyone can be famous or heard or develop an online presence, how does one choose the path that is right for them individually? Who do you listen to?

I keep coming back to discernment. Instead of mindlessly, scrolling hour after hour, take time to let information drift its way through your psyche and see what fits for you. Use your imagination to conceive of what your life might become if you pursue what really matters to you. Learn to use the internet and the amazing tools it offers to get clarity instead of stuffing your intellectual attic with yet more “life hacks.”

We are living through an unprecedented historical revolution. Stability will emerge on the other side because that is what human beings seek and crave. The trick individually will be to come out of all this upheaval intact and with a sense of self you can live with and still recognize as you. Accept that and buckle up. Stay alert and keep your eyes open and wits about you. That’s what I’m going to do anyway. Take what I say with the proverbial grain of salt. I am a single voice among billions.

Perchance to Dream

The vital importance of sleep is often underrated. My friend chiropractor Rabia Barkins is writing a whole book about sleep and sleep disorders. She has so much material, she is already thinking about a second volume. She endured sleep disruptions for some time and knows the deleterious effects of sleep deprivation.

I am not well-conversant with what goes on in the brain during sleep but what I do know makes sense. Sleep is R & R for your brain cells, as well as the rest of your body. With all the work it does for you during the day, and the garbage it picked up, sleep is akin to a four-to-eight-hour detox.

In an oxygen therapy program I did last year, the staff talked about “clearing out the senescent cells” your brain has accumulated over your life. As I understand it, senescent cells have stopped growing and just hang around cluttering up your brain and decreasing your overall brain performance.

So our oxygen therapy program sounded a little like clearing out an attic. Like your brain is a place that you keep throwing stuff up into year after year as a matter of living. What accumulates there gets dusty and starts to break down. Like we all do.

That is my layperson’s interpretation of senescent cells. Like any good decluttering, getting rid of them makes good sense.

Most of the time I love dreaming (nightmares excluded) and again know very little about what takes place during REM sleep. But it is this phase that is supposed to do a deep dive into whatever issues you are wrestling with.

I don’t put a lot of faith in believing that my dreams really sort out major life issues. It sometimes seems quite the opposite. They often make me more confused, if entertained. So if you look at dreams as some sort of arcane theater that none of us understands very well, then you can become more of an observer of your own dreams. Don’t ask me how that is possible. I just know I have done it from time to time.

I love the sheer lunacy of some dreams. Often they seem a lot like Alice in Wonderland without the Red Queen and a far less organized storyline. Dreams are so random. Stories about people I know or would like to know predominated for a time.

When she was still here, I frequently dreamt of Princess Diana and how she and I had become best buddies. I think I related to her vulnerability and disrupted childhood. The similarities ended there.

But they were great dreams. Lots of garden parties on bright sunny days on big estate grounds and delicious little sandwiches with the crusts cut off. Vistas all around of lovely well-dressed people gossiping and socializing as only the Royals and their society might do. Diana would occasionally ask me for fashion advice which I would occasionally give her. This absurd memory still makes me chuckle.

It is noteworthy that those sorts of dreams occurred most frequently when my life circumstances were such that I was the last possible person on Earth to be invited to a Royal gathering. Pure escapism.

But as a television reporter, I had a genuine interaction with Prince Andrew. It was on a Royal tour he was making of Canada at one of those chi-chi garden parties on the lieutenant governor’s estate. I got a full-on view of the kowtowing and pandering around him, especially the media.

As history would have it, I am very lucky I didn’t get to know him one whit better than I did. Ew. Saved by destiny and his utter disinterest in a commoner news reporter from one of the Commonwealth’s “provinces”.

So whatever else I may dream about tonight, it likely won’t be the struggling Windsor family and their issues’ issues. They’re still working to find their feet it would appear. The harsh light of media and incessant exposure has taken considerable bloom off the Royal rose.

Tonight, I will head to sleep with another famous Brit in my head. “To sleep, perchance to dream”. Unlike Hamlet’s fear of what may plague him after he slips into unconsciousness, I rather enjoy my dreams.

I know piteously little about the mechanics or intricacies of sleep. I just know I like it and I need it. Off to find out what my brain intends to share with me tonight.